My mind too mess…everything what I’m thought, there are kinda no way for me to get out from that hell thing…now, there are someone whispering to my mind asking me to kill myself..that whispering too strong wanna to conquer all my mind…I don’t know till when I can stand with this situation…
The only one thing I still can stand till right now…God…cause I know it’s the biggest sin…
I miss my family, my result too bad, I’ve no money to pay my study’s cost, a highest expectation from my parent, no ending drama of relationship and lack of life motivation, a failure to adapt myself with new surrounding…and there’re a still thousand problem I need to face..
Now, I got deep melancholy, depression and I felt uncomfortable..sometime I feel want to scream loudly..crying non-stop..but it’s stuck inside…till the whisper appearing ask me to kill myself…
If someday I’m really do suicide…please forgive me…I do love all of you…I just can’t stand with too much burden…somehow I lost my consideration…
God, please guide me to Your way…amen…
